Monday, December 29, 2008

cuti-cuti malaysia~part 2

having fun at a famosa resort water park..

line up ur hand..ic please..

it's me,my mom,n my sis..

last pose after sliding at high speed slide..

what happened la to my bro n...

one of the houses in tmn mini malaysia..

somebody wants to blow out his own head..frustrating..???

model of menara taming sari..huahuahua..

hahaha..dis 1 i dont know how 2 describe it..gedix..hahaha

time : 25th - 27th of December 2008
venue : Malacca
staying at : malacca straits resort
rate : RM 1++ per nite

comments: this is the real holiday..having fun with people i love most..

Saturday, December 27, 2008

cuti-cuti malaysia~part1

lata tembakah,terengganu..

terengganu's flood..

take a break at the beach..let's fly together..

nothing much dat i tell here..flood,shopping at rantau panjang,pengkalan kubu, and kota bahru, went to see monsoon cup at k.t, and celebrating aidiladha there with my dad's family..then at 14th Dicember,we need to rush back to Johor as my grandpa is ill..

Sunday, December 21, 2008

he's ill...??

on 13th December, we've (my family and me) got the news dat my mom's dad,my grandpa is ill,till on 14th, we rushed back to first, we planned to go to KL..but,i need to sacrifice my audition..just afraid if i cant see him anymore..
within around 12hours, we arrived at Kg Prt Dato, pontian,johor..oh my God!!i just cant believe he is my grandpa dat i left one week week..only one week and he became like that..unable 2 move, when i kissed his hand,it's cold..unable to talk,just move his eyelids as a sign for everything he wanted to say..until now,he still laying on d bed..thank God now he can speak again..but still cant move his legs coz of gout..still laying on the bed..
God,please give him health till he can see me as a teacher..he told me once dat he wants me to b just like my mom..dat is my hope even most of them said he has no chance to live longer..i just want him as my beloved grandpa who always took me to the shop to buy me 'jajan' and 'biskut aiskrim' and brought me around the village with his 'motor kapcai' during my childhood..i love matter what..

1st post in malay..??


di tengah sepi yang membingit
melihat muka dan rupa yang kutahu
tapi tidak kukenal
mereka mengendahkan diriku
tapi dalam masa yang sama
aku di pinggiran
aku mencari
namun tiada erti
aku mengagau
namun kelihatan seolah aku hanya mengigau
di tengah lautan manusia
aku keseorangan
di tepi sungai yang tiada siapa
aku berteman
memerhati diri sendiri
muhasabah, menginsafi
betapa sekiranya
ketika aku berteman,aku keseorangan
ketika aku keseorangan,aku berteman

benarkan aku berkata
aku adalah aku
yang bukan sesiapa
aku hanya aku
tanpa apa-apa
kau tak perlu kata apa
biarkan hanya aku yang berkata
kerana hanya aku yang berhak
atas diriku sendiri
pura-puramu hanya mainan
yang kononnya faham dan mengerti
aku berdiri hingga hari ini
jatuh duduk bangun ku
kau hanya memandang
payah aku juga


dsbbkan sjak n in malay,so post n pn in malay la ek..just ttarik ngn dis sjak sbb ble sya bce seolah2 trasa diri sendri dibawa masuk as d persona dlm sjak 2..dlm part I 2,kdg2 kte akan alami keadaan cm 2 kan..kt kat tgh2 rmai org,tp kt rse sunyi sgt..kt ada kwn,tp kt rse cm ada smthg yg kosong..dat's y ble kt sowg2 2,sebaik2 ny kt ingt2 blk n muhasabah dri blk kan..mgkn ada yg kt tlpe..dari 1 view yg lain lak,sjak n cm nk bgtaw yg owg yg wat sjak n msh tcari2 kawan,rakan,sahabat,@ teman sejati lg.."ketika aku berteman,aku keseorangan"..ada something yg penulis n nk bgtaw tp dia berselindung..seems dia lbh suka berahsia..kwn2 dia cme kawan yang hanya ketawa bersme tp bkn sahabat yg diperlukan sebenar2 nya..seolah2 dia merintih yang dia diketepikan..
sjak dia yg ke2 lak,dia menegakkn ego..dia menegaskan yg dia cme mahu mjd drinya sendri..dan dia n gak cm bg warning kat org lain jgn wat persepc tntg diri dia..sbb bg dia,xde owg yg btl2 knl dan fhm dia kcuali diri dia sndr..

sya tertarik dgn sjak kusha n sbb dpt rse jujur dia dlm sjaknya..siapa kusha??ntah la..xpnh lak dgr nme dia b4 n..really intrested nk knl ngn dia sbb sya pnh rse apa yg dia rse..kdg2 kt mnutup hijab kt sndr xnk knal siapa kte sbnr ny..apatah lg nk bg owg lain knl kte spnuh ny..mybe sbb 2 kdg2 kt rse tpinggir..just b urself,but if cant,b a person dat can make other people happy..

Thursday, December 4, 2008

my lil sister's bday

today is my youngest sister's bday..we just celebr8 it at home coz we r 2 busy pack-in our clothes,going 2 terengganu for our aidiladha celebration tomorrow first, my dad wanted 2 start our journey today as he had finished his work at school..however,his work finished at 5pm,too late 2 start the long journey..

simple celebration~~kfc and vianetta at our home sweet home...

dis is the present dat i gave to her...ok x??

p/s: happy birthday my darling,nurul izzah najihah bt abd aziz...i love u always n forever..jgn nakal2 lg taw,dh 7thn dh..

Monday, December 1, 2008

love is fake..false love??

Love is not love until love's vulnerable. She slowed to sigh, in that long interval.

To love one person with a private love is poor and miserable: to love all is glorious.

No man can love a second time the person whom he has once truly ceased to love.

If you can't be with the one you love, Love the one you're with.

You are wise, Or else you love not, for to be wise and love Exceeds man's might.

for me..LOVE IS HURT. when u love somebody,means u need to prepare to be hurt by him. Quarrel, fights, and anything can happen to your life..including prepare to loss the person that u love so's will bleed till u forget how does u suffer because of it..

damn!!why i 'merepek' like dis?!but,really damn and stupid i am to keep him in my an idiot right??idiot because of him and my blind-love..why cant i see his true colour earlier??


here i want to remind u..dont u ever love a guy 'full-heartily' because whenever he leave u, it will be hard for u to stand will be the hardest period for u to build up ur confidence and strength..and the main thing is dont ever trust a man with 'sweet words'..those 'sweet words' that we,women@ladies@girls, like is the most dangerous thing in the world..more dangerous than any venom from any me..because if a snake bite u, u will die (slowly or quickly depends to the type of the snake)..but if u have been 'bitten' by those 'sweet words' from a 'crocodile land',it will bring u up high over the cloud and the sky then drop u from there and make u suffer emotionally,psycologically, and pysically..ur body are here,on the land,in the home@whenever u r, but ur soul and self-esteem are 0..u will keep remember him and those fake sweet moments..u will keep blaming urself..but please dont!!!(even me,cant stop doing that to being cruel to myself)..this is a reminder for me,myself,and all ladies who read urself first before u love anybody..


please..if u know that the person u called "sayang",honey,baby,"manja",darling,or what so ever love u truly, her as much as u can..if u dont, say it..make her understand..dont just 'melayan' her and then leave whenever u want..or if u want 'berbakul2 makian',then do la whatever u want..

remember...what goes around,comes around..

personality test

i've done a personality test in just for fun. but,look out for my result..maybe through dis, u can know me better..hahaha

Test Results
Your personality type is INFP.
Introverted (I) 57%
Extraverted (E) 43%
Intuitive (N) 64%
Sensing (S) 36%
Feeling (F) 75%
Thinking (T) 25%
Perceiving (P) 64%
Judging (J) 36%

Introverts often:
-Have quiet energy
-Listen more than talk
-Think quietly inside my head
-Think, then act
-Feel comfortable being alone
-Prefer to work "behind-the-scenes"
-Have good powers of concentration
-Prefer to focus on one thing at a time
-Are self-contained and reserved

(somehow,im not very confident with dis it true dat dis thing can show ourselves dat we dont know before??)

here some description dat i've search according to my 'type'....

INFP (Introvert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)
People of this type tend to be: quiet, reserved, and kind; deeply passionate, sensitive, and easily hurt; loving and dedicated to those close to them; creative, original, and imaginative; curious and flexible in small matters; nonconforming.The most important thing to INFPs is their deeply held beliefs and living in harmony with their values.


Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving by Joe Butt
Profile: INFPRevision: 3.0Date of Revision: 26 Feb 2005

"I remember the first albatross I ever saw. ... At intervals, it arched forth its vast archangel wings, as if to embrace some holy ark. Wondrous flutterings and throbbings shook it. Though bodily unharmed, it uttered cries, as some king's ghost in super natural distress. Through its inexpressible, strange eyes, methought I peeped to secrets not below the heavens. As Abraham before the angels, I bowed myself..." --(Herman Melville, Moby Dick)
INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities.
INFP children often exhibit this in a 'Calvin and Hobbes' fashion, switching from reality to fantasy and back again. With few exceptions, it is the NF child who readily develops imaginary playmates (as with Anne of Green Gables's "bookcase girlfriend"--her own reflection) and whose stuffed animals come to life like the Velveteen Rabbit and the Skin Horse:
"...Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand..." (the Skin Horse)
INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity.
Rest you, my enemy,Slain without fault,Life smacks but tastelesslyLacking your salt!Stuck in a bog whence naughtMay catapult me,Come from the grave, long-sought,Come and insult me!--(Steven Vincent Benet, Elegy for an Enemy)
Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response:
"I say, Queequeg! Why don't you speak? It's I--Ishmael." But all remained still as before. ... Something must have happened. Apoplexy!... And running up after me, she caught me as I was again trying to force open the door. ... "Have to burst it open," said I, and was running down the entry a little, for a good start, when the landlady caught me, again vowing I should not break down her premises; but I tore from her, and with a sudden bodily rush dashed myself full against the mark.--(Melville, Moby Dick)
Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., perfo rmance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil. Luke Skywalker in Star Wars depicts this conflict in his struggle between the two sides of "The Force." Although the dark side must be reckoned with, the INFP believes that good ultimately triumphs.
Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman's terms. Brendan Kehoe's Zen and the Art of the Internet is one example of this "de-jargoning" talent in action.

Functional Analysis:

Introverted Feeling
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.

Extraverted iNtuition
Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.

Introverted Sensing
Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.

Extraverted Thinking
The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.


they also said those INFP people are suitable to be idealists???i m???m i???

Here are the results of the Personality Type Assessment. If you are like most people, you will be impressed with how accurately these paragraphs describe you. Introvert, iNtuitive, Feeler, Perceiver (INFP)INFPs represent between 4 and 5% of the U.S. population
INFPs value inner harmony above all else. Sensitive, idealistic, and loyal, they have a strong sense of honor concerning their personal values and are often passionately committed to making sure their beliefs and actions are congruent. INFPs are also extremely perceptive about people. They value their uniqueness and typically seek unconventional ways of doing things. Sensitive and empathetic, INFPs tend to be exceptionally adept at reading between the lines. Although they demonstrate cool reserve on the outside, INFPs care deeply inside. They are compassionate, sympathetic, understanding and very sensitive to the feelings of others. They avoid conflict and are not interested in impressing or dominating others unless their values are at stake. INFPs seldom express the intensity of their feelings and often appear reticent and calm. However, once they know you, they are enthusiastic and warm. Feeling truly understood and respected for their unique perspective and strong values is important for many INFPs.
Tend To Be:• Deeply committed to work and a vision they believe in• Adaptable & patient • Creative, resourceful & naturally curious• Highly diplomatic consensus builders• Perceptive about others’ needs & motivations• Able to "think outside the box" & see possibilities Career SatisfiersAll people are most satisfied and successful when using their natural talents in an environment that is consistent with their personality preferences and values. Research shows that INFPs are most satisfied by jobs that provide the following:• Supportive, meaningful relationships with a small group of co-workers• A role in helping others grow & develop their fullest potential• A tension-free, collaborative work environment• Work that is consistent with their strong, personal values• A role that does not involve public speaking, or disciplining others


i think dat's enough..huhuhu..some of d facts are right..but some are not exactly,some are totally not me..huhuhu..maybe you should try to do the test perhaps it can help you to know youself better..



the things begin...

dis is a reformation done by my cousin who is volunteer to be my make up artist for my audition on 15th December..can i say dis is a kind of restructuring coz my face after all the process is totally different,even me cant believe dat was myself..a fake-face of mine..hahaha..let me say honestly dat dis fake-face of mine is a lil' bit pretty (10% maybe),but the real is it was FAKE!!!

a special kiss for an 'intruder'..hehehe..

betapa susahnya daku ingin mengonlinekan diri...

aisy..feel want 2 throw my laptop..too many problems..arggh!!

nothing much dat i can write here bcoz nothing much happen during dis bored n miss my friends..went to jb,to my cousins' house,playing with their babies,being a 'surirumah' at home and a babysitter..duhh!! -_-" im tired..(aisy..xbaik ny mengeluh..huhuhu)

Friday, November 21, 2008

it's my family...

let me introduce my family first..from dis pic,standing at the back from left is me~nisya,my bro~amir@angah, my younger sis~hidayah@uda, sit in the middle are my lovely dad and mom, and the cutest in the front is my youngest sister and in front of my mom is the third daughter..
emm..wat should i say bout my family mom and my dad are teachers and i am a future teacher. still remember 1 of the question been asked by 1 of the bpg interviewers.."dont u think dat ur family have too many teachers already??" and my answer is "no,because i dont think it's a sin to have many teachers in a's not a tradition,but it's about passion"huhuhu..and my mom said that the answer is 'too brave' n too it?? what ever it is,my parent is my inspiration..
my bro??he is a student at gmi now..german malaysian institute..yaa..i should admit he is a clever and hardworking boy..he's more matured than me u know..he is a good friend whenever i have problems..he also a good listener whenever i feel bad..emm..he is my boy and my best friend..
opps!!need to go now..coz i need to help my dad in organizing rugby,need to go to finish up the forms for tomorrow..

Friday, November 14, 2008

yea!!!! im home..

feel very glad to be at home again..huh..and as a welcoming-lunch,my mom made a marvellous meal with several lauks..huhuhuhu...besh..start from this day i can 'pump up' my weight..hehehe..but i need to mantain my body for the becoming audition..nervous la thinking about it..huhuhu..but my laptop still cant connect to the internet..very sad..farhad...could u please help me..or anybody who can help me,please..!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

d one that can make me laugh..

guess who...emmm...untie sue as the mediator..hehehe

hahaha...i became a 'voodooer'.....

quarrelling over the heritance because of an incomplete will..

"oh Daddy..please dont go.."

here are some picture from our social studies assignment that we did before much fun and tense during the progress..but we are satisfied with our works even we need to go through many obstacles and problems..

it's about microlevel conflict,family inheritance and rivalry..Conflicts in a relationship and in a family situation can happened due to different views or believe that clash. Misunderstanding will make people jump to the wrong conclusion and often lead to arguments. Sometimes, a trifle can be exaggerated become a big disagreement. Within the quarrel, somehow some emotional responses towards any person will burst it to level that is more serious. Each stage of the family cycle brings conflicts such as in a rivalry over inheritance. This scene is always can be seen in the society nowadays. Each problem has the resolutions. For micro level conflict, there have many ways to cope with the problem such as communication, negotiation, mediation, submission, collaboration, accommodation, compromise, avoidance, arbitration, and litigation.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

the end of foundation course in IPP

~~~induction week for our juniors..but we are the 'comot' ones..~~

~~~hari sembelihan amali pendidikan agama islam....~~~

~~tesl nite 2008...enchanted theme...~~

~~~language camp 2008..ipti jb~~

our foundation course here meet the end of it..1 and half year's not a long period,but it's enough to make me learnt something new..many things i learnt here..met few friends,new environment,new lessons,n new life..without our realization,there are many things that we did together..a lot of misunderstandings,quarrels.."sometimes we fight,sometimes we quarrel..but most of the time,we bond..."hope our priceless friendship that we built here is endless..

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

first post!!!!

Life is a world of wonders
life is sandy
life is lonely
life can also be full of different activities.
life is caringlife is hatred
life is always full of mysteries
life is full love
life is full of up and downs
life is mischief
life is entertaining
life is curious
life is full of uderstanding
life is hope
life is sometimes full of hopelessness
life is full of different crimes like stealing, killing..
well life is always interesting