Monday, December 7, 2009

mood: happy but.....

hehehe..ntah nape ntah 2,3 hari n rse cm hepi..tp lonely..tp smtimes sdey..xtaw la apa perasaan sbnrnya skrg n..huhuhu..syesly diriku dilanda ketidakbetulan..ntah r..xtaw r nk ckp cm ne..diri sendiri confius..huhuhu..
pe pn, trase sgt best..sbb..there's smebody yg always b there 4 me..cian gak kat dia..kengkadang t'pk gak..mesti dia bowing sbb asik dgr sya dok berceloteh,bcte,mbebel kat dia..tp, dia smmgny seowg rakan yg baik..wat mse n (status single) sgala opinion yg diperlukan sya mntk dr dia..sya syg sgt kat dia..
tp ckup la skdr kawan..sbb hti sya msh menantia 'si dia' yg sowg lg..klw ada jodoh ad la kot ngn dia..tp rse cm nk tptus hrpn pn ye gak..coz i know he hate me alrdy..
kcewa dlm 1st love, mmg mnonggeng..sbb ye la,nme pn hti dh syg.. byk kali cple pn, xpnh jtuh cnta..2 la 1st tme jtuh cnta..tp nk wat cm ne..dia jmp a girl yg lbih baik n cntik dr sya..
felt in love kali ke2..a miracle..coz he's a good boy..a very good boy..mle2 mse accept dia, just syg cm bese je..lbey dr sowg kwn,tp xla smp smthg dat can b called 'love'..tp lme2, terjatuh gak..klw itu adalah satu episod mimpi, sya rela telan ubat tdo 10bj shari supaya xbgun..even ktowg sllu aduh n bselisih phm, tp sme 2 adlh indah 4 me..owg kte wak2 bcnta mmg indah,tp ble dh kcewa sme jd mmpi ngeri..tp x bg sya..myb sbb sya yg mntk dia ptuskan hbgn ngn sya..sya yg wat slh smp la dia xley nk trma n bnci sya..slh sya..
sya still mharap dia blh mafkan sya n trma sya blik nnt wlaupun sya taw bdna 2 agk mustahil stlh sgala yg blaku..smga kami sma2 dpt mcari nma kami d jabal rahmah..still..he is my forbidden miracle yg tllu sukar utk sya capai..
honestly, i still in love with him..

( i dare 2 write all this things coz i know only me yg bce my blog n..huhuhu.. :) )

2 comments:

NuR _QudS said...

hayyak..try ur best to live ur life..
lambat lagi nk kawen laaa..
kite kan muda lagi~ hehe

Mr Fahkrur and Miss Azaiyani said...

hmmm
try your best.ok
saya mintak maaf dengan ape yg telah saya lakukan pada awk..
chayok!!!