life is not easy..

huh..again..

life is not easy..anything can happen..

believe it or not, mkin tua rase cm makin nak bkepit ngn family..
huhuhu..

now musim cuti..busy..tlg abah kat site, kat umah lak jentera2 sgt memekak..dpn,blkg,kiri.knan..sgala bunyi enjin ada..srabut tol..xsgka lak nk renovet umh smp kna gne jcb..

thank God my dad ajk blik jerteh..lega ckit..mule ingat sempat gak nk men bnjir..avanza je la men bnjir tgh jln..mse odw blik, dr kuantan smp ke k.trengganu ujan lebat xbrenti..kat paka, jln sangkut sbb air melintas..sangkut kat kT, tdo kat indah beach resort 1n8..ok gak r..tmpt bru bukak..

yeah...smp jerteh d next day..tp sdkit kcwa coz bnjir dh serik..hr n dh pns dh pn..ingat smpt gak nk men banjir..huhuhu..

bape hr je lg tggl b4 fly..mse yg ada hny utk family and me..tp kblkgn n kerap terganggu pkrn..byk gak bnda nk kna pk..past..present..future..org kte hdup jgn pndg ke blkg..tp klw xpndg, kt xkan dpt pedoman utk mse dpan..n mcm mn lak kt xley pndg ke blkg, sdangkan apa yg kt dh lalui di masa lalu 2 la yang akn determine our future..cm ne yek agk ny my future??

titik permulaan..

dulu..bile kt ada sgalanya, kt mdh lupa..ble 1 hari, kt jth..kt mula utk bgn..satu per satu kt atur langkah utk bgun lg..

cm ne blh jatuh??

tahukah, itu kesalahanku..cuai,lalai,leka mengejar yg d hdp tnpa pernah skali memikirkan langkah yg diambil..malah lupa jalan yang seharusnya aku ambil dh lma kulencongkan..

tp, sgt bersyukur bahawa aku dh tjatuh..sakit..teramat sakit..sakit yg akhir nya menyedarkan aku dari segala-galanya..kesakitan yg hingga payah utk ku bangun semula..smp t'pk xmo bgun2 dh..cme mujur ada 1tgn yg sudi menghulurkan secubit kekuatan utk bgun balik..tgn yg sentiasa bantu utk memimpin kembali pada jalan yang satu,jalan yang lama aku nk pergi tapi xde kekuatan utk kembali..terima kasih teramat utk pemilik tangan itu..aku sesungguhnya terhutang budi dan nyawa pada mu..kerana tgn yg bantu utk bgun kembali itu adalh yg tgn yg mbawa ku kembali pada fitrah yg asli..

dan itulah satu titik permulaan..permulaan utk hidup baru..

dan pada seseorang memberi satu naskah pembimbing abadi, terima kasih jua..hadiah yg sgt bmakna..pada mereka yg mjd saksi, terima kasih juga yg kuucapkan..akan kupegang janji hingga hujung nyawa..

pd semua, maafkan diri ini..masih belum tkumpul kekuatan utk berdiri mengakui kejatuhan itu..kekuatan yg ada skrg n cme bersisa utk mencari identiti pd jln fitrah yg asli..

pd seowg mnusia yg aku tlanjur menghulur cinta pd nya sblm aku knal cinta Hakiki, maaf..xmampu utk b'sma mu lg..diri ini xlayak lagi..akan ada mnusia yg bnama perempuan yg lbih berhak utk berada di samping mu..kerana aku masih teraba-raba mencari identiti..

pd diri sendiri, bpgang lah pd janji..teguhkanlah hati..

bday abah..

23rd of september 2009, abah's 45th bday..dsbbkan mse 2 tgh ryen sgt cbuk hr 2..ktowg just celebr8 mlm ny..wat bbq burung puyuh n ikan..emmm..besh...


n actually xwish pn kat abh dr pg..abh ingt ktowg xingt..smp la...

"hepi bday 2 u,
hepi bday 2 u,
hepi bday 2 abh...
hepi bday 2 u.."

kek yg dbeli diam2..hehehe..nyaris tkantoi sbb abh nk amik air kat dlm peti sjuk..nsb baik ada kakak yg pndai mengalih phatian abah..huhuhu..



mama yg turut bersuhabat dlm mjayakan suprise utk abh..hehehe...











lastly..

abh..hepi bday..(opps..belated dh n)..thanx 4 everything..cyg abah..

cterku utk raye 09..

emm..

ada owg kte raya kali n x besh..

tp 4 me, raya kali n agk besh..



d story b4 smp umh..huru-hara..laptop n hard disk pn ley ttggal..nk bli bju abh kat bj ny cter smp tjtuh kat tangga bus stop..mse 2 ujn lbat gler..mlm lak 2..dh la driku ini rabun, cme ngengade mls nk pkai spec je..padan muke..kan dh jtuh tgga..huhuhu..nsib baik ada mr mashmallow ku tlg smbut (dr tepi je la pas jtuh 2..huhuhu) 3hr still trse skit lg..



d day b4 raye smp kat umh, pg..fmily amik kat larkin..odw blik abh kata,"along,awk blik xley tdo taw..byk dh keje 2ggu"..adoi..dan sy membalas,"abah,sggh klinik dlu ley?"kerana pwutku sdh trse skit dr mlm ny slps jtuh tangga..bak kte mama,"retis ny la bdn awk n.." ble cter kat mama n abh nape nk g klinik, apa lg, kdgrn la bebelan yg sdh lme kurindui utk mdgarny..huhuhu..taw,mama n abh mrh sbb syg along kan??hehehe..cyg kamoo jgk..yg besh ny smp kat umh sy hny mgarah..jd mandur.."angah, langsir kat dpn xpasang lg" "uda, sapu n mop umh,blik along sx ek" "kchik, tlg kmas tmpt kuih" "kakak, tlg lap cwn" dan sebagainy lagi..sbb abh swuh rhat n xyah wat keje,tkut pwut skit lg..tp dgil nk wat kuih gak..mn ley miss wat kuih..hehehe..ptg, mk ck2, pk ck2 sdh rmai mmnuhi ruang di umh sbb nk wat psiapn rye..sme psiapn raya kali n nk wat kat umh cn, lg pn umh atok 5mnt je pn dr umh sya n..so dh ciap2 msk sme, tggal angkut je esk..



YEA!!!!RAYA!!!

mlm rye agk meriah..sbb bdk2 cbuk main bunga api n mercun (jgn tiru aksi ini..bahaya) mak2 cbuk masak kat dapur, ank2 dara cbuk wat kuih, tp yg besh ny phk llaki la..duk dpn tv, bbual..cme abh slaku tuan umh je kjap2 jenguk dapur,tlg2 mn patut(eg. topup air teh n kopi kat dpn utk kaum bapa, basuh periuk kuali, pastikan sme bnda ckup, n mcm2 lg) yg bujang trang tang2 lak cbuk dok borak2 smbil usha bdk2 yg dok main bunga api..pas2 kwa g bndr..bese r..lelaki kan..

pagi raya..cm bese je..angkut brg g umh atok..smyg raye..drama air mata ktka sesi bmaaf-maafan..hehehe..cme cm xrmai sgt owg kat umh atok kali n sbb ada dlm 3,4 owg gak adk bradik mama yg xblik..emm..ntah la..smkin kt mnginjak dewasa, smkin byk bnda yg kt xmmpu nk phm kan..bdk2 gak sronok dpt duit raye..pas sesi mgumpul duit raye abis, sesi bgambar lak..pas2 mkn juadah raya..menu hr 2: nasi tomato, ayam masak merah, dalca, rendang, ktupat, burasak (yg n a type of mknn jawa,lbh kurang cm nsi impit, cme dbalut ngn daun pisang dlm bntuk leper2,n nasi dia cm nasi lmak coz bsantan),lepat, serunding..syesly mmg byk sgt mkn hr 2..pas2 bgrak la g brya ke umh snak saudara beramai2..6buah kete wat rmbgn..meriah gak r even 2 mmg xtvt bese..



raya ke2..

umh diserang..sme2 dtg blik kat umh sya..so kre cm open house utk fmily tdkat je..fmily tdkat = lbh krg 10fmly yg dtg..mak ndak, mak lang, mak oteh, pak long, mak ngah, pak itam, mak uda, ngn fmily diowg dan jgk fmily2 csins ku yg dh bkahwin..cm knduri pn ye gak..pas2 g glang pth, umh along ain,csin sya yg dh ada 2owg ank yg sgt cmel2..pas2 umh adik dia, angah eon yg jgk dh bkahwin n ada sowg anak yg mmg rpat ngn sya..



raya ke3..

business day..ciapkan tempahan gubahan pengantin..



raya ke4..

ntr gubahan..n jgk bilik pgantin yg ke4 utk sya hias..bab favourite nih..syesly, ske teramat gubah bilik pengantin bbanding ngn keje lain..cme time wat keje 2 tringt kat mr mashmallow n terpk, "ble la aku nk gbah blik pengantinku sndri n?" usih..mgarut dh..lari topic n..tp jwpn ny mmg lmbt lg..tunggu ek..hehehe..n actually hr n bday abh..ada la clbr8 ckit2..



raya ke5..

hr yg sgt mmenatkn..sbb??sbb ny dr kul9 pg, owg xptus2 dtg..n sbgai owg dapur, xptus2 memasak..mule2 bihun goreng..pas2 nasi ayam..pas2 laksa penang..n mlm lak wat bbq..ltey teramat..tp mmg meriah n besh..

k la..2 je cter utk rye kali n..pas n kembali ke student's life..huhuhu..

friendship vs love..??

dis morning i got a sms from someone..

"i always thought loving someone is the greatest feeling but i realized that loving friends is even better..we lose people we love but we never lose friends"

emm..

pros and cons..love is sweet,love is crazy,love is about madness..but sometimes love can be bitter,love is a sickness,love is hurt..

n how about friends??sometimes it can be the best shoulder to lend on,sometimes it can be backstabbers..friends can be trusted,friends can lie..we need friends to cheer up..friends r d ones who make us sad..do everything with friends..left out by friends..

tesl nite'09: arabian masquerade

welcome to arabian masquerade nite .......

hot stuff of the night..hahaha...

the hottest controversy of the night..

oasis masquerade team..i love u guys..

the supportive lecturer..our lovely darling, mdm salmah..

~~~there's some pictures taken during the tesl nite '09 with the theme of arabian masquerade..wat a nite it was..full of controversy but still full of memories to remember..maybe it will become our last tesl nite..but, let's pray it still become our annual function in future..

it's not right, but it's ok...

emm..there's a lot of things are not right..but for some people it is still ok n acceptable..same goes with me,myself..maybe for others, what i am doing @ did is not right, but i just can accept it..opps!! i know what i did is wrong, but can i just being myself??n people..please, if i didnt disturb ur life, please back off from mine..doesn't mean i cant accept any advise from others, but the thing dat i cant accept is those make-up stories about me and any more kutukan..
hello!! i think nobody likes to be 'dikutuk' and 'dimake-up' stories about urself right..nama pn make-up stories, so mmg xbtol la..memandai je wat cter psl owg..apa kes..bajet hot stuff r ble dpt made up those stories about me then sebarkan pada owg lain..rse superior r??!!bangang sgguh tndakan itu..dok peringat kat owg lain tntang dosa pahala, what about u remind urself first??ckup2 lah..penat dh..